Surely You Jest!

I am confused today.


It was more apparent to me a month ago at the birthday party, but my dear brother you have me engaged as always. I wonder what makes your brain tick?

Astrologically speaking:
Cancer: A crab is able to walk or run sideways. Similarly, Cancer natives can sometimes "move about" in life, in a figurative sense, in an indirect manner. The crab's body is covered by a carapace (shell). Cancer natives are self-protective and sensitive, and often retreat into themselves when hurt. Crabs are able to resist changes in the environment, thereby protecting themselves from hostile elements in various habitats. Similarly, Cancer natives are thought to avoid too much change, and to be on the defensive. Crabs have "complex behavior patterns" (1). The inner world of Cancer natives is thought to be rather quirky and complex. Some crabs "conceal themselves by decorating their bodies with plants and animals" (2). Cancer natives tend to try to blend in with their environments, preferring not to make a big splash in life.


Biblically Speaking:
Double Minded: If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
----- James 1:5-8


It was worse on Friday night. What unbelievable gall. But my poor boy.... the request? It makes me realize that no matter how much I think I got it figured out, I don't. Maybe you are helping me.

4 months kid. 4 stupid months I chased your ass and begged for it, to kiss it. That ball has been in your court for FAR too long. So start practicing cos it sounds like you wanna play ball.



I asked Lauryn... she told me;
"Its funny how money change a situation
Miscommunication leads to complication
My emancipation dont fit your equation
I was on the humble, you - on every station
Now you wanna ball over separation
Tarnish my image in your conversation
Who you gon scrimmage, like you the champion
You might win some but you just lost one"




have you heard her new album??? damn!!!





I asked Big Brother.... he said

"Shoulda stayed in food and beverage,
too much flossing Too much Sam Rothstein,
I ain't a bitch but I gotta divorce them
Hov had to get the shallow shit up off him
And I ain't even want to be famous
Niggas is brainless to unnecessarily go through these changes
And I don't even know how I came to this
Except that fame is the worst drug known to man
It's stronger than heroin,
when you can look in the mirror like ‘there I am”
And still not see what you become I know I'm guilty of it too,
but not like them You lost one... "





I don't know. It's just funny to me anymore.

At first I thought it sucked, but then I realized... for the most part I have no enemies. I have 3 people in my life I need to make amends with. Considering how big an asshole I am.... thats pretty good. Plus, 2 of them, including the kid, have the ball in their court anyways. I am willing to forgive, but its not my move anymore.


As far as that fat fuck Joe. Shit man, practice what you preach. HA! No, no, no... thats horrible, but seriously, your wife owes my wife a serious apology.... you fat fuck.


And the 3rd. Well, I'll get around to her. It ain't the end of the world anyways.