3 Little Birds

1.) God is teaching me humility.


"Why do bad things happen to good people?"
"A good person is merely someone who hasn't been caught."

"There is no one righteous, not even one;

there is no one who understands,

no one who seeks God.

All have turned away,

they have together become worthless;

there is no one who does good,

not even one."

Psalms 53:1-3

I woke up early this morning, for a Saturday. I could still taste Rum and Taco Bell on the back of my tongue and I knew that I had exasperated my ability to fart. If I pushed again it would not be noise and air.


Washing my hands after my morning stool, I stared in the mirror. Gargeling the Cool Mint Listerene in my mouth... I was happy.... but still tired.


Seems like I had just laid down when she got up. I listened as she entered the bathroom. 'She probably can't fart anymore either', I think to myself.


I feel her back in the bed. She stretches out next to me. I feel her feet runn down my leg and I instantly become motivated. One thing leads into another and my motivation becomes action.


20 minutes later, my head between her breasts, she plans out our morning. Coffee at the park to catch the sunrise, make a grocery list on a bench, go shopping and then come home and make breakfast.


As we back out the driveway and prepare to start our happy little morning I hear, "Oh shit! They bashed your window! Oh god! The drums!"


I stand there looking into the vehicle but trying not to touch anything. I can see that they took as many drums as they could squeeze out, but they left a lot of things. Like they got frustrated that their smooth steal got a little cramped and scared that things were taking too long. I look around and notice the stereo is totally gone. "Damn it!"


I got in the car and we went and completed our morning plans.


A year ago I woulda thought that God was punishing me. As though he was mad. 'You haven't been paying your tithes! You are reaping what you've sown!!! God is pissed at me.... I must be sinning!'

I mean, come on. Anytime you are violated like that, the first thought is, "Who is to blame here?" And we went on with our morning and I kept bringing it up. I was disappointed. I never did stuff like that when I was younger. I wasn't trying to convince myself that I was reaping some seed of an old sin, but I just thought, what is going on in society when the desperation for money or food or whatever is coming down to just randomly breaking anything at anytime to obtain something that isn't mine. I guess I was just feeling volated is all. And in my pride to sound like I was seeking to be above it all I asked God, "What do you want me to learn Lord?"

::God chuckles::

Learn? I didn't DO this. I am not trying to teach you something. I am not 'allowing' this to happen to you because you did something. Think about it.

a.) You are bummed because you don't have insurance on that vehicle and that window will be paid out of the money you don't even have.
b.) You are bummed because they took 3 critical pieces of a drum set that was going to a youth group at your church and you were gonna surprise them with this as a gift.
c.) You are bummed because they took that stereo that is the heartbeat of your car. Even when you're running late, you won't leave until that stereo is on.

I know you are bummed David. I was the one who whispered in your ear, 'Just go, enjoy your morning with Trudy. It will be okay.' I know how violated you feel and I know how frustrated you feel, but the world turns and the days are evil. People are roaming the earth with no direction. They are all making choices. Some good and some bad. Just like you.....

Stop.... Just like me???
The it hit me.

a.) I have owned the vehicle for almost 3 months now and I have yet to get insurance on the dumb thing. Sometimes I have had the money to do it and I didn't do it. I haven't even changed the plates to register under the new vehicle type. I have been driving around illegally. That has been my choice though.
b.) I have had that drumset in the back of that Blazer for almost 2 weeks now. Not covered, not hidden. Just sitting there in plain view. I have procrastinated delivering it to the church cos I chose to not make time to drop them off.
c.) That stereo was installed by me 2 weeks after I got the vehicle. The only thing left to do was to fasten it in to the hole so it was more stable. Sometimes when I would take off too fast the whole stereo would slide out. That thing was a stereo thiefs dream. I chose to leave the stereo as is, laying in the slot, unfastened, because I was gonna do it manana.

Somebody chose to rob me last night. And I can't control that. But a lot of the pain and frustration that I experienced could have been avoided if I had controlled my choices a little better. But I rest in knowing this:

Romans 8:28 - And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him.

"When the rain falls, it don't fall on one mans house...." --- Robert Nesta


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2.) God is teaching me trust.

All I can think about is.... is someone breaking into my vehicle tonight?
Are they out there right now?
Why is the dog barking?
Shit! I can't afford another window!!!!

God speaks, "I didn't give you a spirit that makes you a slave to fear. But you received my spirit. The Spirit of sonship. And you can call out to me, 'Daddy, I am scared, give me rest.'"

The sun shines

And leaves blow

And my hope like autumn is turning brown

I know it seems like I am always falling down

But it does not matter to me

Although it seems like it should

It's because I know I am understood when I hear Him say

Rest in me little David

And dry all your tears

You can lay down your armorA

nd have no fear

Cause I'm always here

When you're tired of running

I'm all the strength that you need

It's up hill both ways

Tomorrow I swear I won't act this way

I know it seems like that's what I always say

But it does not matter to me

Although it seems like it should

It's because I know I am understood

When I hear Him say

Rest in my little David

And dry all your tears

You can lay down your armor

And have no fearCause I'm always here

When you're tired of running

I'm all the strength that you need

-lyrics by David Bazan

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3.) God is becoming my healer.

I won't dive into this too deep because I am not inviting discussion or debate on this issue. Nor do I want anyone to think that they are some how below me or that I am even implying that. I think everyone should live his life according to his own actions, choices and beliefs.

This is where I am at.

Isaiah 53:5 - "But he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed."

---- He got his ass kicked for me so that I won't have my ass kicked by sickness, brokeness or bondage. Not just a spiritual metaphor, but literally.

1 Corinthians15:55-57 - "O death, where is your victory?

O death, where is your sting?”
For sin is the sting that results in death, and the law gives sin its power. But thank God! He gives us victory over sin and death through our Lord Jesus Christ.

---- Death has no power over me. Nor does the deception of 'sin'.

John 8:44 - "For you are the children of your father the devil, and you love to do the evil things he does. He was a murderer from the beginning. He has always hated the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he lies, it is consistent with his character; for he is a liar and the father of lies.

---- His death was truly for my life. His blood truly means something. You cannot take this from me. Satan is trying to convince me that Christ's death is not as big a deal as it was. Well fuck you, you lying devil!

Summed up? I am not taking medicene anymore. Not that I am now. But next time I start feeling the effects of that liar telling me that I have a cold or that I am getting a headache.... no medicene. I am not preaching against doctors or surgeries or anything like that. You do what you gotta do. But I am tired of the devil dictating the fear of sickness in me. I don't get sick. I allow Satan to convince that I am sick.

I am done believing the lies.

This is not a new religion, but rather a revelation.... for me. I just wanted to testify to that.